So many times, I find myself imagining, wondering and pondering on what my life will be like. in this future I picture, I see extraordinary things.
But then, I think about my past and my present; about what life has given me so far, and the word that comes to mind is "ordinary." Some areas of my life have been below even ordinary. Don't get it twisted: I DO recognize that I am blessed and I am grateful to God for those blessings. It's just that, in the grand scheme of things, the future I crave is a far cry from what I've had so far.
Ordinary, in my opinion, is boring.My greatest fear, unlike most people, is not the fear of failure. My greatest fear is the fear of being mediocre; of being AVERAGE! That is the absolutely worst thing that could happen. The future I desire is way above average and extraordinary.
I'm not ready to describe the future I picture yet because writing it on paper takes power from it; taking it outside of myself and then it ceases to be mine alone. This is my prayer:
"Lord, grant me a beautiful future with which my childhood self and present self would be extremely glad; a future that if my 16-year old self had been able to glimpse, she would have known that she had no reason to worry; a future that my 19-year old self would realize was well worth the wait. (Amen)."
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