In The Navel of The Soul

In the navel of the soul

The midwives of the spirit say they can hear a heart throb

The experts of course disagree -

The urine test they ordered tested negative confirming their palpitation results

Our fundal height is at an all-time low

Our breasts bear no tale-tell tints upon their tits

Yet in their finger upon our navel

The midwives of the spirit say they can hear a fetal throb

God, the things that are done in Your name

I mean, the things that are undone behind the flimsy facade of Your name

If our own eyes have not seen

the things they here disclaim on an oath

We would have been believing we dreamt it all

Indeed even now,

Under the heat of their quizzical glare

The benign indulgence of their smiles

We are not sure

NO! We are sure

They say we've gone all out of our minds

But if madness nurtures such lucidity,

God make us mad

Make us even more mad!

For in the navel of the soul

We too have felt at times

The throb of a heart straining

A spirit refusing to be drowned

in its own waters before birth

Day 5 - My Dreams

"I am a dreamer but when I wake you can't break my spirits, its my dreams you take." (Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt). Even if you take the dreams, I'm awake & since you didn't take my memory, I remember & I'll work to make the dreams come true.

I have so many dreams & I could go on and on.

I really want to be successful in whatever, everything and anything I do.

I've always wanted, and still want to be an actress. If you know anything about me, you'll know how much I LOVE the stage. Acting is my passion! Its really amazing. In my short life, I've been on the stage more times than I remember, and nothing ever felt as right. I hope acting continues to remain in my life. All I know is I want to be an actress; dreaming of making it as a celebrity.

I've dreamed of many things:

I used to dream of being a gynecologist and pediatrician but thats not me.

I want to be happy and fulfilled with great friends, a wonderful husband and awesome kids (which include twins). Many of my dreams are romantic (yeah, I'm a hopeless romantic). I have so many romantic ideas about my future relationships and marriage. I hope those dreams come true.

I have many dreams, some might not come true; but a girl can dream can't she?

Day 4 - My Closest Sibling (or relative)

This is too hard. I'm not close to my siblings, at all. I don't really have cousins or family to whom I'm close. I was going to talk about someone but I've just realized the person is not worthy of being called a closest relative so, why bother?

Day 3 - My Parents

Lets start with the insignificant and least important:

I have a stepfather (I guess he counts as a parent). I absolutely D I S L I K E him. He's of no consequence to me. There's no love in my heart for him, at all. Did I mention that he's the phoniest person I've met in my entire life?

My father is in Nigeria. We have a weird kind of relationship. We're not close but I know I love him (even if its a little). He's not been a perfect father or the kind of father I sometimes wish I had but he has a FEW strong points. I think my father likes me least of his three children because he's said to me that I'm just like my mother. My father is kinda scared of me (weird right) because I'm blunt; he didn't let me know this but my uncle told me (don't tell my father I know!). He's the really cool parent. I just have to be like "I'm going to visit my friend" and there are no questions asked. He's also way more liberal about things than my mother. I feel like he trusts me to handle issues more than my mother does. He has so many faults, we don't always get along, I feel he doesn't care at times, I act like I don't care many times; but I do. I miss you dad.

My mother! There's too much to say. We also have a kind of relationship. I'm closer to her than my father but I'm not really close to her. She doesn't really know me & there are way too many things I can't tell her. I would rather talk to my friends about my issues than her. I love her, no doubt. She drives me crazy and all. We get along better when we are apart. My mother is more of the provider for my siblings and I & if anyone knows the kind of sacrifices she's had to make for us, it's me. I appreciate her for all these things. Even though I pray for a better relationship with my future children than the one we have now & I hope that I'm very close to my children - a better mother, I know that my mother tries her best for me (and my siblings) and has made her best efforts to raise us better than she was raised - without the love of a mother or father in the house of people who treated her like a slave; she's succeeding just as I hope I succeed at raising my children better than I'm being raised so that with each generation the bond between mother and children gets stronger.

Day 2 - My Crush

This is actually really easy because right now, I'm not crushing on anyone.

My Crush - Non-existent

Day 1 - My Bestfriend

I've really never had to think of who my best friend is or was considering the fact that where I come from you had best friends when you were a child. Anyway, this blog is about three people (yes I know there are only two pictures; that's just because my picasa was acting a fool yesterday night).

On the right is Tolulope Kumuyi, I call her my "bestest friend" and I love this girl to bits. I've known her since we were both in the womb (that's the truth since we're six months apart in age). My special portable. We don't talk as often as I'd like (that's mostly because of her school) but the bond of friendship is there. There was a time when we were kinda out of touch for a long while but we picked our friendship right back. In spite of the our parents grown up drama and issues, we're still going strong. Too many details; just know, I love this girl, she's my "bestest" friend ever & hopefully our friendship continues for life.

In the middle (the invisible picture) is Omotayo Egberongbe and she's my soul sister. We've been friends for about 5 years now and we've come a long way together. We have so much understanding for each other so we hardly have issues. We're always real with each other. We still talk really often so our friendship is safe. Did I mention that I'm the future godmother of her first child?

On the left is Oluwagbemisola Akinola & I consider her my bestie. I've known her the shortest but I feel like her know her the most or almost as much. We were together for a brief three months in Ajayi Crowther University (my school before I relocated) but I feel like we've been friends for years (in actuality we've been friends for almost 1 year 9 months). I miss her so much. This girl knows me so well & is always ready to apologize when she senses a change in my mood after anything she says or does. Another big thing is she shares so much personal stuff with me that I can trust her with anything, secret (I hardly have any) or issue. We've come a very long way in a short time. I hope its forever. I've got mad love for you girl.

These are the three people I consider my best friends. One similar trait: they are super generous & caring. I love these girls too much.

Blog Challenge

I've been MIA on here for a while that's just because I've been really bored & nothing is happening in my life so there's no inspiration to blog. Anyway, I should be regular for at least the next 30 days seeing as Yvette (the one from Ghana), Bilphena (the Liberian girl) and I (I love those girls; they are just super cool and real) are starting our 30-day blog challenge TOMORROW (Yay!!!!).

These are the first 27 questions:

Day 1 - Your best friend
Day 2 - Your crush
Day 3 - Your parents
Day 4 - Your sibling (or closest relative)
Day 5 - Your dreams
Day 6 - A stranger
Day 7 - Your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 - Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 - Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 - Someone you don't talk to as much as you would like
Day 11 - A deceased person with whom you wish you could talk
Day 12 - The person you hate/the person that caused you the most pain
Day 13 - A fictional book
Day 14 - Someone from whom you have drifted
Day 15 - The person you miss the most
Day 16 - Someone that is not in your state or country
Day 17 - Someone from your childhood
Day 18 - The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 - Someone that pesters your mind - good or bad
Day 20 - The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 - Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 - Someone to whom you want to give a second chance
Day 23 - The last person you kissed
Day 24 - The person that gave you your favorite memory
Day 25 - The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 - The last person to who you made a pinky promise
Day 27 - The friendliest person you knew for only one day

This should really be fun.

Yvette's blog - http://evet965.blogspot.com/

Bilphena's blog - http://planetfaraway.tumblr.com/

*Random* One of my long lost special friends is back in my life. I'm happy he's back; I've missed him so much.

I'm praying for the quick recovery of another one of my special friends. I absolutely miss our wonderful conversations.

I'm outta here for now. I'll be back *deuces*