Day 7 - My Ex-boyfriend/Love/Crush

Can you have an ex-boyfriend without ever having had a boyfriend? Can you have an ex-love (what's that btw) without ever having been in love? I guess the answer is "NO" on both counts so I don't have an ex-boyfriend or ex-love.

This is going to be about my first crush (as far as I can remember) and my almost boyfriend (I know that sounds weird lol).

First Crush:I must have been like 8 years old (#superyoung, but I've always been more mature than my age) when I had a crush on this guy. He's waaaaaaaaaaaaay older than I am (#Anotherrandomfact I fall for older guys too much and vice versa). Since he's known me forever he probably just saw me as a younger sister or whatever, or just a cute kid. His eyes are MAGNIFICENT. I look into those eyes and I'm done, literally. His are the most beautiful eyes I've seen. I'd probably(actually I will) trip for those eyes whenever I see him again. I almost forgot to mention that he noticed me after a while (14, 15, 16) but by then, this girl was feeling grown.

Almost Boyfriend: Sometimes I wonder if I made a mistake by not having a relationship with this guy. I'm learning to stop living in the past and wondering about what could have been. "Don't cry that its over, smile that it ever happened." We were friends for a while (we still are); I actually realize that what I refer to as our "friendship" is what my American friends will call "talking." I appreciate our friendship & made me realize I can be loved and appreciated. Just putting out there; I didn't have a relationship with him mostly because I'm a coward (with my heart) and was scared & because I knew I was relocating the United States soon (to a much lesser extent). He's a writer/poet and he's good at what he does. He's also older than me btw (almost 7 years). He's the kind of person most girls would want as a boyfriend. Too many memories. I remember when there was a full moon, he sent me a text talking about the moon & actually comparing me to the moon,then he called me. #Sweetmemories. I guess what I'm trying to say is I've never felt as loved in my entire life and I got so much attention and care. I'm happy for him and his girlfriend. I hope she appreciates him. I never really saw myself as being good enough for him anyway.